Is this the way it's supposed to be?
Could it really be this easy? Did I really just figure it out?
I've been battling a few things out with God recently. For the past few months, I've really wanted to start a ministry or organization that betters the community. My heart goes out to the Invisible Children ministry that helps out the child soldiers in Uganda. I want to make an impact but I don't know where to start. So that is something I've been trying to figure out and pray about.
There is also this student teaching loan that I can apply for to pay for my schooling. However, it's awesome because after you graduate, if you get a job in an 'at risk' district or school in this state, this program will subtract $5,000 from the amount you owe back to them. (It would take me about 8 years teaching at this school or in this district before my loan is completely paid off) So it's like a scholarship but you must promise to work in an at risk school once you graduate. I was a little apprehensive about this. I mean, my dream has been to go back and teach, if not in the school I grew up in, then at least the district I grew up in. However, district 5 is one of the most prestigious districts in the state. So I've been really struggling with this decision on whether to apply for this loan or not. It would be amazing to be able to not have to pay for school but I couldn't figure out if I could work in a place like this.
And then it hit me tonight. I've been wanting to make an impact in the community. My heart goes out to kids who don't get what they need. What better way to serve God's children than to work in a community where I'm surrounded by these kids in need. I'm not saying that it's not going to be difficult to get up and go to work everyday. I'm not saying I'm not going to come across difficult situations that I'll have to face. I'm not saying that it's going to be the easy choice to make. And after the 8 years of working in this district, if I don't like it, then I can move to a different district. But I think I have finally found the connection I've been trying to make between my love for kids and teaching, and my heart for creating a ministry to serve children in need. I've finally figured out what the Lord wants me to do with my life...at least for now :)
